walking these states,
only time will tell how long I can wait

Conversation, Stupidity.
Saturday, May 23, 2009 @ 10:06 PM
EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:44 PM):
hi

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:44 PM):
what you want?
Nice criticising pple?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:45 PM):
no
sorry

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:45 PM):
happy criticising?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:45 PM):
la
chill can or not

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:45 PM):
okay.
explain to me.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:45 PM):
please

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:45 PM):
can

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:45 PM):
what

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:45 PM):
i can coool

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:45 PM):
the cool
please

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:45 PM):
but explain to me why must you say ms azeanni that word?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:46 PM):
dont know
as if u never say

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:46 PM):
WHAT?!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:46 PM):
ya

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:46 PM):
i never say ms azeanni okaaay

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:46 PM):
ha
vet

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:46 PM):
I nvr critic pple.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:47 PM):
Unlike you

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:47 PM):
ok
ok
never mind

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:47 PM):
you better say sorry to ms azeanni

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:47 PM):
BUT PLEASE DONT BE ANGRY AT ME CAN

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:47 PM):
but you critic her without any reasons.
shes a very good teacher you know.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:48 PM):
OK

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:48 PM):
okay.
now you realised you did something bad?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:48 PM):
NO
I AM FAMOUS

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:49 PM):
EVEY ONE KNOWS ABOUT
IT

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:49 PM):
why no? WHAT FAMOUS?! you did that cause you wanted to be famous?
ohhh come on
grow up laaa trip

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:49 PM):
I AM GROWN UO
UP

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:50 PM):
ONLY AZEEANI BECAME A CHILD
BY CRYING

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:50 PM):
you dont seemed to be grown up. no maturity of your words.
FCUK!
what
?!
critic her again
She didnt cry for all you know.
Shes Hurt.
Deeply hurt.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:51 PM):
If she cried, its all because of YOU!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:51 PM):
GOOD

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:51 PM):
Dont you feel guilty at all?
whats GOOD?
whats wrong with you?!
Ms azeanni never do anything towards you right?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:51 PM):
AND NOW I AM GOING TO GET A1 FOR ENGLISH AND SS WITHOUT HER HELP GET IT

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:51 PM):
FCUK!
What?!

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:52 PM):
You sure you can get A1 without her help?
i doubt so.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:52 PM):
DONT DOUBT ...
IT WILL HAPPEN

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:52 PM):
with pple like you around, not being appreciative, i doubt you can even get 1 grade A1 in your CERTIFICATE!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:52 PM):
U WILL SEE

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:52 PM):
I will see.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:53 PM):
i will wait
you'll get A1 or not.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:53 PM):
SO BAD I WILL

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:53 PM):
If you never get, what happen?
Come on.
Im on for it.
I really doubt you can get.
Im confident

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:53 PM):
WOW
SO SCARED

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:54 PM):
BRING IT ON ILI NURSHAHIDAH BTE MOHD DIN
BUT I DONT SEE THE POINT IN US FIGHTING

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:55 PM):
Why you dont see a point? Yes, i agree i dont see a point in us fighting.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:55 PM):
SEE A POINT IN WHAT

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR just sent you a nudge.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:56 PM):
my objective to fight with you cause to wake you up. you never even realise you've hurt someone which has been a very good teacher and has been patient towards us and never fail to persevere with our bad attitude.
Can you just wake up?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:56 PM):
NO
U DONT U GET IT

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:57 PM):
I FAILED ALL MY ENGLISH PAPERS

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR just sent you a nudge.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:57 PM):
Excuse me
like i never fail

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (7:57 PM):
ALL???????????/

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:57 PM):
HEYYYYY, FAILING is not a reason to critic her just like that.
She didnt set all the papers.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:58 PM):
She set paper 2 only.
If you are smart enough, you should have studied beforehand and prove to her that you can pass.
but indeed NO.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (7:59 PM):
you didnt study and ended up failing and curse and critic a teacher that wanted to just test us on our different standards of English?
COME ON TRIP
If you fail this MYE, doesnt meant you fail forever right?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:00 PM):
COME ON LA
FIRST TIME IN MY LFE
ALL MY PAPERS FLOPPED
SHE GET CHANGED
BEETER
BETTER

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR just sent you a nudge.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:01 PM):
she get changed better?!
what you meant?
come on.
if you fail, you dont need to blame the teachers.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:01 PM):
AS IN OUT OF OUR CLASS FOR GOOD
I DO
LOOK AT TAN BEE 1 AND TAN BENG CHOO

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:02 PM):
I GOT TOP BECAUSE OF THEM
THEY NEVER SCOLD ME FOR SCOLDING MY FRIENDS
BUT LOOK AT AZEANNI ..SCOLD U OUT OF THE CLASS ...WRITE A APOLGY LETTER AND THAT CRAP

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:03 PM):
GET IT NOW
U MUST BE WRITING AN ESSAY AGIAN

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:04 PM):
Firstly, have you thought of putting in effort in the 1st place for EL? EXCUSE ME, COME ON LAAAA TRIP! IF A TEACHER DONT SCOLD YOU FOR SCOLDING YOUR FRIENDS, IT SHOWS NOT A GOOD SIGN ISNT IT? IF A TCHER SCOLDS YOU, SHE JUST WANT TO WAKE YOU UP AND MAKE YOU REALISE YOU DID SOMETHING BAD.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:04 PM):
ANYTHING MORE OR I CAN SAY BYE
NEVER MIND
I AM GOING TO EAT5
WILL THINK ABOUT IT
OK

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:04 PM):
GO EAT AND REFLECT
BE BACK FAST

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:08 PM):
okay please continue

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:09 PM):
yes

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:09 PM):
yes continue

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:09 PM):
Firstly, have you thought of putting in effort in the 1st place for EL? EXCUSE ME, COME ON LAAAA TRIP! IF A TEACHER DONT SCOLD YOU FOR SCOLDING YOUR FRIENDS, IT SHOWS NOT A GOOD SIGN ISNT IT? IF A TCEHR SCOLDS YOU, SHE JUST WANT TO WAKE YOU UP AND MAKE YOU REALISE YOU DID SOMETHING BAD.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:09 PM):
i am thinking of apologizing

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:09 PM):
yes
great

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR just sent you a nudge.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:10 PM):
how come you had came to that conclusion?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:10 PM):
i will talk to my advisors first

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:10 PM):
Enough thoughts that made you realise that it was totally not her fault that you failed EL?
what advisors?
Need to have advisors?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:10 PM):
no

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:10 PM):
use your own brain and reflect.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:10 PM):
yes

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:11 PM):
no

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:11 PM):
no need advisors.
what yes no?!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:11 PM):
i need
i got 5

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR just sent you a nudge.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:11 PM):
im serious. if your advisors are the bad example, you follow?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:11 PM):
maybe i should not
maybe i should
dont know la

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:12 PM):
will she forgive me
??????

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:12 PM):
let me be frank with you can?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:12 PM):
cna
can

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:14 PM):
It isnt a teacher's fault for scolding you, for nagging, for whatever it is. For all Ms Azeanni did was she care for us. She never made us feel remorse before. We might get the worst EL marks ever or so, but we must actually thank her for being such a good teacher that held great patience towards us thus far. Have you think of it? I doubt so.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:15 PM):
She never give up on us despite our worst character and bad attitude.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:15 PM):
continue
why cant u be like that during essay writing

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:15 PM):
FCUK!
Criticise me next is it?!!!!

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:16 PM):
Stop being sarcastic while you're at losing end.
cause its no use.
no point

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:17 PM):
Well, have you reflect that you've hurt such a good teacher?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:17 PM):
no
come on man

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:18 PM):
i am not at the losing end

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:19 PM):
And to think you criticised Ms azeanni, dense, shes not okayy. At least she got qualifications. What you got? nothing. Just a student. With such a bad attitude criticising a teacher without reflecting himself on why he had done badly for EL.
come on laaa TRIP.
be wise can a not?
Im not as big as you are but i can think more maturely than you are.
Arent you ashame?
Come on
reflect

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:20 PM):
She had never been treating you bad right?
She did that because she CARE!
Come on!
please TRIP!
wake up and realise.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:21 PM):
okay i will apologize
this monday
cna
can

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:21 PM):
although i might not score as good and as well as you are but i got some good characters built in me that make me realise and i got brains to think two sided and not one sided on the things around.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:22 PM):
Well, so, come on okaaay.
You fail once doesnt mean you fail forever.
take it as a step to success.
and learn from your mistakes.
Can?

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:23 PM):
I bet you can think wisely next time before criticising people or so.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:23 PM):
so do u forgive me

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:23 PM):
I will forgive you once you say sorry to Ms Azeanni.

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:24 PM):
Seek forgiveness willingly from the bottom of your heart and not for the sake of me forgiving you.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:24 PM):
ha okay
okay

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:25 PM):
can i say something

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:25 PM):
yes?
sure
you can

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:26 PM):
try la
no harm what
u sound like my gm

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:26 PM):
GM?
what?

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:27 PM):
WHAT?!!!!!
GM?
grandmother?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:27 PM):
grandmother

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:27 PM):
Fcuk shiol!!!!!!!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:28 PM):
swear la chibai

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:28 PM):
After all those, i didnt even get a 'thank you' but being criticised as a grandmother instead?
ASS laaa
Go and die.
_|_
Go and die

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:28 PM):
chill la
thanks man
u know me

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:29 PM):
i love having fun

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:29 PM):
I know
Hahahah
Okaaaay,
So, will you say sorry to ms azeanni willingly and sincerely?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:29 PM):
yes

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:30 PM):
sorry to u for the otgher day
other day

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:30 PM):
goood. Its okay.
Its alright.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:31 PM):
bye
????????????????

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:31 PM):
wait

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:31 PM):
what

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:33 PM):
Please please please, dont critic people anyhow. You'll get worst and as much worst then being critic. And if you know, its not nice to feel being criticised when that person has done so much things for us which is goood which benefit us in any way and taught us a lot.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:33 PM):
okay la
stupid azeeani

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:33 PM):
FCUK!!!!!!!
OI!!!!!!!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:33 PM):
what

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:33 PM):
never wake up is it?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:33 PM):
chill la

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:33 PM):
What chill chill?!!!!!!!!!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:33 PM):
just playing a fool

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:34 PM):
Its not time to play a fool. Im serious here.
come on trip.
Be serious.
although at times i might not be serious but to certain extent, some things needs to be serious.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:34 PM):
okay s

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:35 PM):
i cannot be serious
la

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:35 PM):
why?
You can
if towards your result, you can be serious, i cant see why you cant be serious when it come to this kind of things?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:36 PM):
okay will try
logining out in 1 minute
sitting at the cybercafe
in malaysia

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:36 PM):
And remember, you fail once doesnt mean you fail forever.
okaaaaaaay.
Go ahead.
Anything jsut see you in sch on Monday.
Remmeber what you said.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:36 PM):
bye

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:36 PM):
you will seek forgiveness.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:36 PM):
bye

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:37 PM):
BYE!
TC!
RMBR WHAT YOU SAID!

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:45 PM):
i am back
TO HAUNT U

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:45 PM):
what?
why haunt me?
crazy

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:46 PM):
how come you can come back online again while your time in the cyber is over?

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:47 PM):
i know the auntt

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:47 PM):
hahhaa

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:47 PM):
good right

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:48 PM):
so whats up
had your dinnwer'
dinner
what u eat
u still mad at me
how do u think i should apologize to her

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:48 PM):
well, i have not yet eaten

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:49 PM):
my dad's away to buy food for the family

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:49 PM):
why

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:49 PM):
so, im waiting patiently.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:49 PM):
oo
the mee gerong at 60 ayer rajah fod centre is nice
so am i forgiven

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:49 PM):
Yeah. I will forgive you after you seek forgiveness from Ms Azeanni.
Hahahha.
you can still give me some recommendations?
nonsense.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:49 PM):
okay

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR says (8:54 PM):
ok ...got to reallly go
bye
see u in skool
can
bye
bye

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR just sent you a nudge.

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRR winks:


Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:54 PM):
hahhaa

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:54 PM):
gtg?
okaaay
see you on min
mon*

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:55 PM):
try to think of methods to seek her forgiveness.
at times its hard to forgive you know. its hard to heal.
once a heart is hurt, its hard to heal

Ili Nurshahidah Bte Mohd Din says (8:56 PM):
So, i really hope you will seek forgiveness willingly and sincerely without doubts and try your best.


Dont mind the typo errors.
I'm being praised from one of my mates that im like a politician in that conversation which uses proper English when im both, not serious and serious.
But in my opinion, my EL still sucks big time.
I want to improve on it non-stop even if it's already good.
(:

On the day i got to find out that he actually said that, i feel like punching him up right no matter how small i am and really wanted to teach him a lesson.
He deserve that but luckily, GFs were there to cool me down.
Well, patience is key.
But seriously he's really being too self-centered and heartless.
Miss Azeanni dont deserve that like seriously.
(I hope you are alright and feeling better. Cheer up.)
I tend to be over protective over the people i appreciate.
I dont know why.
But i guess, im afraid to lose them thats the reason why(?).
;D

And Sometimes, people just need to get knock in the head then they realise.
I admit, just like me.
Okay.

"To bear misfortunes is with equanimity."
"Don't jeer on others unless you can do better"



Well, I was given a second chance but i wasted it.
Stupidity and ridicule.
Im speechless.
Im sorry!
Seriously very SORRY!
I hope you are feeling better and alright.
Have a great weekend.
Cheer up.
Im sorry.
);

Anyway, I'm feeling full of agony, remorse and regrets.
Well, Today, thanks to Nur Zahidah Bte Zainal that im feeling abit better.
She said it's hard to please me whereas whenever i cool her down, its just my own way that i can cool her down just like that and please her.
And Thanks Apok regarding yesterday.
If you both arent there for me, i dont know what will happen next.
Well, today, Zah called me at ard 11+am waking me up from my sleep despite that i had replied all her text messages beforehand.
Hahaha.
After which, we had a conversation on msn regarding my decision.
Well, i know i've made the right choice and decision.
Anyway, we were talking about happiness.
Who doesnt want happiness, you tell me?
Everyone wants it right?
Hahaha.
Well, basically, she knows me well enough that im always giving in nevertheless knowing that im hurting myself to just give others happiness instead to myself and to just wait patiently cause I know god will repay me and bless me with happiness one day which i must really cherish it and just accept everything cause everything happens for a reason.
Although shes been teaching me to fight for my rights and find my happiness, i still choose to give in.
Well, Patience is the key.
Persevere and the outcome will be great.

With that, i shall end my post with saying sorry to my beloved people that i had hurt or disappoint.
Im seriously very sorry.
Take care.

With love,
Ili Nurshahidah