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Everything around me are against me or the other way round, I'm against things that is around me?



Firstly,
Dearest Nur Zahidah Bte Zainal,
I would like to thank you for your great patience towards me and the motivation that you gave me this far. I'm also sorry for all my wrongdoings towards you and all my annoyance and all the problems that i have created. I'm so so sorry. I know I'm the greatest major loser. I know I'm the major loser who wants to give up after the long path that i have made it to where i am right now. I know I' the major loser who never fails to tell myself to give up since I'm forever stuck to where I am now. I know I'm the major loser who keeps on telling myself that I could not make it to sec 5 next year. I know I'm the major loser who is always bad in people's point of view or in the people's eyes. I know I'm the major loser who suck in motivating myself. I know I'm the major loser whom never have picked myself up whenever i had a fall. I know I'm the major loser who suck at simply every subjects. I know I'm the major loser who simply is a bothersome when laziness strikes me. I know I'm the major loser when things came to an end that thus, leads me in having no choice to pick what i want in life and have to go with what the choices made for me. I know I'm a major loser who have always pessimistic outlook on everything. I knew I've changed a lot from the start of this year cause I never have the mind set that I could make it to next year. You're not the cause of the changes I've made. I'm sorry. I've realised now after all the advice you gave me and the conflict we had. I know i have to pick myself up whenever i fall and I have to persevere whenever i have doubts or any challenges or so. Also, I must have the optimistic outlook on everything. I have to also get things done faster than usual as time is not with me. I cant turn back the time. Also, I shall not give up easily and persevere. Nothing is Impossible. & When there's a will and there's always a way. Therefore, I shall have a better mind set now. Tribute to you and really really thank you to you. I really appreciate every bits and pieces you've done for me. I'm sorry too. I hope things will be back as what it should be and better than before and the best as it could turn out to be. Last but not least, I love you as forever I have been. (:


Secondly,
Dearest Miss Sunarti(Just like a sister),
Thanks for those wonderful advice and the cool motivation. I appreciate it. I will remember those advice. It is as follows: To have an optimistic outlook, To manage my time well as I can't rewind the time back again especially for Exams or Tests, To throw away those pessimistic outlook, To not apologise for the sake of apologising but to be sincere about it and to improve and repent after that, To try my best in everything i do, To not have the mindset of retaining for another year as it will be shameful for a lady but it might not be for a guy, There's a will and there will be a way, Nothing is Impossible, Just Do It, To break those walls I've built, It takes 2 hands to clap, To get this in my head that this year is a crucial year so I have to be serious and if there is any doubts, do approach the teachers and not to be scared, To ask questions whenever I'm dumbfounded in class, To wake up now cause it's already April as time is not with me and a few more months, it is already the N Levels which is September or you will dig my eyes(She's threatening me and I bet she wont dare to do it for sure!) & more to be listed. It's really cool and nice to talk with you, Ms Sunarti. It turned out to be stress-free & I nearly break down. Thanks to you. I want to really thank you a lot a lot for those advice and lecture and lengthy chat we had on last Thursday. Sorry to waste your time for that but I really really really appreciate it. You're just like a mentor/sister to me. Really a huge thank you! (:


Thirdly,
Dearest Miss Azeanni(Idol),
I'm terribly sorry for the way i have reacted the other day and all my wrongdoings towards you. I know I'm much much more terrible than before. I'm not at the pace where mates is at right now. I know I'm always one of the few students who will always submit work late. I know I have never put in much effort as before. I know I'm such an annoyance during your lessons and always get the terrible punishment. I know I'm slower than the rest of the mates. I know that i'm weak. I know I've always said sorry to you but i did it again and again and again. It became a habit to do it again and again. I'm seriously very very sorry. I didn't meant to do it again and again. I'm sorry. I know you have great concern towards the class and is upset towards our poor attitude or so and I know you have held great patience towards me this far. I'm sorry to have caused you to wash your hands off me and have made you to have a student less to care about and have a paper less to mark. I'm seriously very sorry. My bad. I never intend it to be this way. I'm sorry. I hope you wont give the cold shoulder that you've given me this far. I'm sorry. I need 2 hands to clap like what Ms Sunarti said & this year is my crucial year. I'm seriously very sorry. Please give me another chance to improve myself again. Please. & i seriously need your help for me to be able to achieve the grades that I want. Please. & really a huge thank you for your great patience towards me. & Yes, you are still my idol although our relationship is sour now and there's tension between us. Please forgive me and i hope you will give me another chance. I'm sorry. (:


Lastly,
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Dearest Mrs Tan,
Thanks for those advice, motivation, lectures and reminders on my confidence level. I almost break down when you lectured me. Thanks to you. & I'll try my best for coursework. I'm sorry for my lousy coursework. Thanks for the help on Tuesday. I really really appreciate it. A huge thank you to you. Really thank you. RockASS! (: